Today is the last day of school
and we got our subject combinations back
and i not happy about it
i jus wanna go the other combinations
and i know its IMPOSSIBLE,literally
I've got nothing to say
im dead
im not going to see tomorow's sun again
im not going to see tomorow's moon again
im jus going to die
and the cruel heaven alr shown me signs of that
the cruel reality im going to face...

walked home frm yishun mrt cos my bus left 3secs earlier
which gave me my 1st sign
decide to walk home due to calcuations
walking half-way on the field
heaven decided to send the 2nd sign
it rained
but for a person like me
it doesn't matter me anymore
i cannot lift my head
i can only see the raindrops dropping
i pass a young couple(secondary students)
they're sharing an umbrella
i pity them yet i envy them
they're loving,sensing the love in them
i do not smile,i do not sulk
there are no expressions on my face
ying wei,dang ren shang xin dao qi dian de shi hou
yan lei shi bu hui liu sia lai de
when i thought about this,it reminds me about the crying the girls have in class
i have the worse feeling,yet i do not cry
because of the sentence up there
i pretened that nothing wrong happened
and i belive,many of u who saw me fell for it
should i be happy?no!
i am at the extreme point of sadness and nothing could cheer me up
bursting into reality
im am here,writing this post
yet my sadness is there,it cannot be expressed
no one can help me
its up to myself
i hope,u would not suffer from the same thing too...