been slacking quite a lot. never really touch my books other than doing homework, which is a little limited.

it's not that my study mode is off or something, it's just that i don't know where to begin. i can't plan a study timetable as all the remedial and homework will disrupt my timetable and it's equals to no timetable. plus there's only 7days a week while i have to like study for 9subjects, it's actually 8 but ss and geog are 2 seperate papers. it's really like hell. plus there's band and other stuff.

i'll just have to manage my time well that's all. i shall take the CNY to come out with a timetable and follow it. and do well for my common tests so that DSA won't be a problem.

there will be SPA this friday and saturday. how 'relaxing'. it's science practical assessment by the way. i'm excited over SPA and the excitement is driving me crazy. how nice. plus me and ws will be the only girls the the lab. how nice too.

CNY and CTs just don't match.







actually, we shouldn't do well for O levels, so the next batch after us won't get a day off from school. lolx. as if i will want it to happen.

there's band. ms tan came again. sight read 'can't take my eyes off you'. nice. had lunch at the coffee shop behind school.

had orientation of the new secONEs. it rained a little, so had the first few games at the area outside band room. than had the rest at the parade square. a lot of people complain that it's too 'shiny'. i find it shiny too but had no choice. there was water bomb too but i didn't play and went to look at the bbq. they ran out of firestarters, so i bought somemore for them and at the same time, bought bubble tea. everyone suddenly all become 'water ghost'. keep on drinking water. 10 1.5litres of water gone within 20minutes.

ate some chicken. someone wanted chicken breast but we tell him that there isn't chicken breast. only got wing, drumstick and fillet. end up, the fillet is actually chicken breast meat. -.- didn't really eat much as all the cooked food are snapped up fast or they are too burnt on one side and most of the uncooked food just can't get cooked cause of the fire.

mrs lai brought her baby along. she's cute luh.

everything was good until something has to make it bad.

tired. lots of homework not done. lots of revision desperately needed to be done.

tuesday
physics was the usual. geog was crap. the moviemaker has sending problems. make us do than cannot send. wasting out efforts. there's ss quiz. i basically wrote crap for it. english was interesting. we got a visitor who came to talk to us about his experience in the olden days of singapore. nice but we waited 45mins for him to come, so he couldn't talk much and we have to write an essay on what he have said. at least english is starting to get nicer i should say. no one to distract me so i can pay more attention in class. released late so was late for bio. emaths was slacking. amaths remedial was doing worksheets again but the work is easier or i just got the hang of it and was able to do most of the work without much help.

had makeup for biology practical. had to wear safety goggles for every practical. the goggles aren't nice to wear but we have no choice or our marks will be deducted.

asking someone else to do your homework for you and you copy is a good way to learn. so copying homework is good. i should say. haha.

wednesday
triple sciences day. bag is super heavy. everyone's bag is.

chapel was the usual. everytime say the same few things. i should be glad that it's my last year already. chinese teacher didn't come so studied for chemistry test later but i slept instead. very tired. emaths can slack again.

should i say that mr ng makes physics lessons easy to understand. nice. had a few minutes of chemistry before our class is due for health check. we were all very fascinated with our health booklets. comparing our weight and height all this stuff. funny. went in when it's my turn. the nurse ask me to cover my left eye. i think a while, and cover my right eye instead. i didn't realise until everything is over and i see anna cover her left eye when she was told. OMG?! i don't know my left and right. was supposedly the first girl to went up for biology as about 90% of the girls had to check their backbone and the others are waiting for them to finish then come up together.

did our makeup for chemistry practical. had to wear safety goggles again. they are afraid that we pour the chemicals into our eyes. ridiculous luh and it was a sauna in the lab. the teacher off all the fans as the other class is doing heating. make us sweat like mad. had chemistry test. left my calculator in my bag in the band room. so i can basically just die. cause there's test on chemical calculations.

went for band and i slacked in the bandroom. basically just talk to the sec1s. some are nice. seeing a same guy trying to carry a tuba is very funny. no sec1 wants to join the clarinet section. sad. maybe they are not familiar with this black wooden instrument. guys don't want to join as they say that our section is mostly girls except for one. crap.

thursday
today's the release of the 2007 O level results. next year will be our turn.
whitespace is spent in the hall listening to some talk and most people is falling asleep. amaths was quite alright. got back our ss quiz. i got another star even though i didn't get full marks. nice. got quite alright for physics test. surprisingly. english was spent going through our english quiz format.

stayed back after school for committee meeting. had to wait till after the O level results is released than it commence. got our money. my day just gone like that.

friday
a very short day so my bag is super light. had pe. this is the first time that i actually jogged without stopping. must train for 2.4km. had some batting exercise and some ball catching exercise. i seems to throw very hard. ws's arm got red. had titration again. the chemical is like grape juice. purple in colour. english was in the library to know what we are supposed to do for cyber day tomorrow. assembly was spent planning for our coming CIP and yj amd ws got a little pissed off cause of CIP. had chinese remedial. practiced a little oral skills.

lunched and went shopping. nice. but the stuff especially the drinks are super heavy and i have to carry them to school tomorrow. my hand can just break off.

finished english and maths cyber day homework. had to wake up early to get it done before i go for band as teacher refused to extend the due date.

i haven't been doing any studying for the whole week. darm.

my blog just work up from it's hibernation. i broke my promise and i'm going to break it again some time this week. oh crap.

today is a english day and i suffered grastic for the whole day as i only got to eat at 3.15pm. sad.
mrs choy came back from her maternity leave but she won't be teaching us for some time, i think and ws 'complained' to her about the biopolis. but even when they sort of dislike it a little, we still can't get over biopolis. the lab coats, gloves, PBT, BSA[those 2 are just chemicals that we used there], micropipette, the people and basically, i still miss playing with the auto-sliding doors and the card reader.

but those three days of supposedly learning in a different way, caused me to miss a lot of lessons and now i have to do lots of catching up.

that's all for now.


i shall treat everyone that is cold towards me to have pms.

band today. sec1s came but they are asked to go home. poor thing. there are some cute wants. nice. warm ups. didn't know i got so much air so i just end up playing very loud. so a guest conductor came and gave us 2 new pieces to sightread. the songs are alright. at least got to play some different type of genres. the way she teach subdivision is also very good. first time get to go home early.

walked the whole of sun plaza to find a place to eat but all are so crowded so didn't eat. there's food at home, so i saved some money today.

there's cyber day today but there's only one maths worksheet. oh crap. it's the school's way of giving us more homework to do. next week will be worst with english maths biology chemistry physics plus a long day at school cause of band's stuff i can just die. with all this homework coming in at different time, i can never fix a day to study a subject already. so i'm messed up all over after just nearly 1month of school.

there's also amaths homework accumulated since tuesday. started doing it and i feel like going mad. double angle formula is easy to understand but converting the stuff around isn't nice or i just can't seems to be able to do proving identities questions.

so end up reading biology textbook and it dawned on me that i have homework due on monday. the answers were surprisingly easy to find on the internet. nice.

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i shall let this blog rest till the chinese new year break but there's common test after the break, so it means studystudystudy still.



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this weird thing happened just now when i was waiting for my bus to come.

i bought ice cream and ate while waiting for the bus to come at the interchange. there's 15mins to kill so i somehow eat freakingly slow. as i was enjoying my ice cream, an indian somehow walked pass, look at me, walked to look at the directory, sat on the bench beside me, and somehow keep on looking at me or maybe is someone behind me cause there's one.

suddenly, he talked to me. those things that people alwasy ask. what school you are from, you are sec what. than he said this, 'i like the way you eat your ice cream.' crap. he has been looking at me all this while. than he asked if i love ice cream and even waited to buy me more. super weird. i declined. obviously. the thing that is so coincident about this is the face that he lives one street away from mine. wow.

even though i wasn't feeling very hungry cause of the carrot cake that i ate while still at biopolis but i just end up buying all the things that i have wanted to eat for the past week.

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i can choose if i want to let other people's comments affect me or not and i always choose to not let it affect me. but words said can never be taken back.

unhappy things are meant to be forgotten

BIOPOLIS!!!

dayONE
met up with yingjun and amanda at sbw mrt. train-ed all the way to jurong east than to buona vista. it took 35 minutes excluding waiting to get there. met wengsun there. she did sudoku while waiting for us. she's bored. wanted to take the shuttle bus in but end up walking instead as it was near but it ended up quite far. the building that we were suppose to go to, proteos, was located quite inside of biopolis.

went in and waited there. we waited for about 1hour before someone came and collect us. we were given a tag so that we can enter the building and have excess to the stairways and stuff. the lift needs to be activated too.

had a talk about lab safety and stuff. next was another talk. it's about the things that we will be doing. the speaker is supposedly from china and speaks with the chinese accent that plus there was lots of biological terms used, so it was a bit difficult to understand what he was saying sometimes. went to the lab we will be working in for the next two days. it's obviously very different from our school's one but nothing really anything special. had to wear lab coats and gloves. they used a very good method of splitting us into groups but i somehow still end up in the same group as ws(: had to try using a micropipette. there's 3 different types there and the maximum amount drawn is 1ml. WOW. nice. their testtube is also freaking small. only can contain maximum of 1.5ml.

a VS guy was my partner and going to be so for the next two days. luckily he's quite nice. let me do most of the time. we work on fruit fly embryos. super small. one is as small as a fullstop on this page or maybe smaller. some parts wasn't very nice. just keep repeating the steps and we keep on washing the embryos and everytime we wash, some embryo will be sucked up. so there's like lesser eggs left than what was provided at the start. was allowed to remove our gloves to finish the worksheet. after that, i let the guy do everything cause i'm lazy to wear back the gloves which is very powdery and leaves a clinical smell on my hands.

had to do some presentation on the third day. crap. did some registration before we leave. it was basically crap. went home. ws yj amanda was in quite a bad mood as what it was like wasn't what they thought it was going to be like.


WE MISSED SCHOOL! I MISSED BAND TOO!

dayTWO
reporting time was later. so decided to meet up with yj amd for breakfast @ macs. so i ended up waiting for them for about 20mins before realising that there are already at macs. ate and left. actually, the later we leave, the more people there is on the train. stand all the way to buona vista. ws still arrived earlier than us. walked there again. ws said that the distance is 1km from the mrt to proteos[our building]. wow!

went straight up to the lab. the only thing we are fascinated with in the building is the tapping of our cards on the reader and opening every lab door we pass as it just require a scan of your hand. many people already reach there and some were working on their project while we use a computer to visit our blogs and play games. lolx.

continued with our experiment from yesterday. had to wait 5mins between every washing for it to incubate. so we can talk and play during that time. me ws yj amd played heart attack during that time. this time, with our hands floating in mid-air. laugh a lot. had an early lunch while we wait for the embryos to incubate for 2hours. used the computer than went to the foodcourt at matrix for lunch. everytime, someone will end up buying the food that everyone wants to eat but the person cannot finish, so everyone will rush for the food. that's between the 4 of us. we bought jelly again and i ate yellow watermelon.

amd forgot to bring down her pass but she still manage to get up cause the security wasn't looking and he saw us came out before. we were still very fascinated with the card reader and will open the lab door that we see has no one everytime we pass by it. we thought we will be late for our various group discussion. end up, no one was doing and some people was watching 'bleach'. so we end up taking pictures with our lab coat on but without the gloves.

continued the experiment. this time, we got into contact with carcinogenic chemicals. after some swirling of our container wrapped in aluminium foil, the embryos changed colour. it was supposed to turn to brown but mine exceeded the time so it turned what they call 'charcoal'. look under the microscope. got to see parts of the nervous system that was stained. it was at this point of time that everyone start to realise that what we are doing actually got some link to neurobiology or simply, the nervous system. ws took a photo of the embryos under microscope. nice.

went for the fly lab tour after that. saw the place that all the fruit flies are kept. cool. the place or just a store room, has a radio in it and it smells weird and there's lots of containers of fruit flies, big and small. went back and slacked while others do the project. they so willing help us do all the research and stuff, so i just stand there and look.

went to a sky garden at helios. the tallest and biggest building in biopolis. it's freaking nice, located at the 12th floor plus there's air-conditioning too. cool. took out group photo there plus lots of random other photos. after that, we were released but most of the groups stayed to finish up the project. we left after a while and went to the foodcourt again to buy jelly. we are crazy about jellies. walked back to the mrt. elias came and pass me my test papers and homework. i got full marks for 2quizes(:

train-ed home with yj amd. we nearly miss the jurong east stop. there was a lot of people. we managed to find seats but it's only for 2 people, so we 3 just squeeze onto the seats. i nearly fell asleep but by that time, it was already at admiralty, so didn't get to sleep must. tired.

today was a day of laughter and fun. better than the first day!

I SITLL MISS SCHOOL!

dayTHREE
got woken up by 3 alarm clocks at 6.15am and 2 of them snoozed till 7am. crap. was 10-15mins late. took the pasir ris train, so didn't have to change train but it was crowded with people. we were early for once, so me yj amd sat on the platform to wait for ws to arrive. walked to the bus stop and took a shuttle bus in. we were lazy to walk all the way in. reached the lab, those that came early yesterday, came early today too.

today was basically a quite slack day. had a tour at the zebrafish facility. nice. got to see how the zebrafish embryo developed. after that, had our presentation at the room where we had our safety talk. some groups were funny. my group was the last to present. basically, most of our stuff were repeated so it was quite boring. did a feedback form, returned our pass and got our group photo that we took yesterday and a contact list of everyone excluding the contact numbers.

we were released when the school just started assembly. lolx. [don't ask me how i know that]
went to the foodcourt at matrix for the last time. bought some like food as we didn't feel like eating there. so slowly walk to the mrt and train-ed home.

that ends my three days at proteos, biopolis. will miss the place BUT I MISSED SCHOOL TOO!

just some thoughts and now everything is over. just like that.
but it isn't the thoughts that cause it. it was other random comments.


words said can't be taken back.
i know nothing can be done to pay back for the damage done.
it's like broken glass, no matter how you fix it, there will always be cracks.


someone tell me not to keep my feelings inside me. i did it. i helps.
but it now becomes someone else nightmare.


life is just so ironic

little known facts about me.

1. i only have ONE pair of shoes, which are school shoes.
2. i only have ONE type of socks, which are school socks.
3. i only have THREE bags. my school bag, my sling bag since pri sch, the 'goodie bag' bag from SP.

thanks to ws, who 'inspired' me to write this post.

i'm very pathetic. yes i know.
you can't judge a person's wealth from the type of house the person lives in.

this was a random post.

i have started to become a little lazy after just the 3rd week of school. that's very bad. how can i survive another 9months till olevels? i'm like so dead.

today's a very maths day. 2periods of maths before recess. 2periods of maths before school dismissal and than another 2periods of maths during structured remedial. the first 4periods were super slack or i just choose to be slack. teacher let us play with dices to learn probability. nice. teacher also ask us to each think of a number from 0 to 100 to find the probability that 2person can think of the same number. we shocked teacher. we tried again but now from 0 to 500. we shocked teacher again. nice.

english was very entertaining. a situational writing can become a comedy show. teacher want us to act out what we think happened to get a better idea of the situational writing. nice. amaths structured remedial after school isn't really very nice. we just get more homework to do. crap. had physics test in the library after that. 1page is easy, 1page isn't.

today isn't a very nice day. there's so much homework but i have the rest of the week to complete them. yeah. going to biopolis tomorrow and the day after and the day after that. nice.

there will most likely be cyber school this sat. our weekends are burnt.


how nice to spend the year like that.

i was pretty high today and scare my piano teacher's dog by my laughter. weird. the dog started running around and barking. had lemon flavoured black tea bag. nice. nicer than the lemongrass tea that we have been drinking. i prefer tea bags than tea leaves.

after going to the singapore polytechnic open house, things started to change for me. my perception/impression of polytechnic starts to change a little. everything is like so different already. to think that i have been complaining that the school only bring us to polytechnic and not junior college.

jobs that are mostly for guys or subjects/courses that mostly guys study, doesn't mean that girls can't go for it too. stereotype or gender discrimination you call it. i don't really care. i'll just do what i can and able do. the future isn't for me to decide.


life's like this

i shouldn't be blogging now. crap. anyway, my 2008 resolution was broken on the 2nd day of 2008 so why bother.

band today was like WOW! sight-read 16 chorales. it's easier than my piano scores as it's only one line, that's why i sort of got almost everything right until the end when i was out of breath. played adagio. my stamina isn't good so i get breathless if i have to keep on playing for the whole piece. starchaser was ok. had sectionals for 20mins. made a little progress.

had exco meeting like every band practice since school reopens. it's so crappy and someone started to bang on the gong everytime the meeting starts and ends so that it's official. weird. our ear drums are in danger.

told my unhappiness to someone. feels a little better but the feeling is still inside me. someone told me that my mood is random. hmmz. someone say that i'm patient, but i don't so. maybe it's the different perception that people see me or maybe it's the perception that i want people to see me? i don't really know too.


studystudystudy. AJC HERE I COME!(:

i'm reviving my blog for the day.

the first week of school is basically a little slack butbutbut stress starts to build up in me and the pressure to do well for 'O's too. all the dates for the exams start to pour in for the first day of school. CTs is after CNY holiday. how nice. my birthday fall on prelim 1. how nice too. one month before 'O's we have prelim 2. how very nice is this year going to be?

my mindset has started to switch too. now everyday come home is studystudystudy. in school is ask for all the tests and exams dates so can studystudystudy. in class is sit in front for all lessons. i already sit in front for some lessons since last year already but this year is for all and i pull ws to sit in front with me and rebecca and jessica follow suit. i'm helping another 3 people.(:

i also heard something from 2teachers that really contradict each other. one tell us to go for CCA so we can get our bonus point, another tell us to stop CCA as it will affect our studies. weird.

my no computer resolution won't work! always need to use the computer to do work! especially write minutes everytime we have band meeting. so crap but i take super long to type one, so cannot accumulate or i will never finish.


i'm sharing my notes with my pri sch friend in other sec sch, so that we can go to same JC! JIAYOU!


sec 4 life isn't very nice

I WANT TO JOIN THE AVIATION INDUSTRY!
i want to fly an aeroplane!


I WANT TO JOIN THE MARITIME INDUSTRY!
i want to sail onboard a ship!






how i wish that we can get THE BEST OF BOTH WORLDS...

a woman - without her, man is nothing!

a woman, without her man, is nothing.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

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